ADWatts
2006-12-08 21:33:24 UTC
Just wanted to drop by, say "hi", and let everyone know I'm still alive
and somewhat kicking.
I know it's been *way* too long since I made contact (sorry, sorry,
sorry!), but believe me I wouldn't have stayed away so long if I'd had
any choice. I'm not going to go into many details (those who know me
already know some of the problems I have) because I'm pretty tired
about talking about/dealing with them in real life. Let's just say that
I've (hopefully) hit rock bottom, and in the last couple weeks things
have started to turn around. Finally.
There is one thing I will mention, for those interested, because it is
very serious. As some of you may recall, I have Marfan Syndrome. Some
of the major effects of the disease are on the heart. Well, just
recently, it has been confirmed that my aorta is enlarged and there is
a small leak in one of the valves. While I'm taking medication to keep
my blood pressure as low as possible, my heart is basically a "ticking
time-bomb." At some point the aorta will burst. Next week? Next year?
Ten years from now? Who knows. The only sure thing is that it will.
This isn't any big surprise for me, of course. I've known my whole life
that it was highly probable to happen. But knowing it could happen, and
finding out it's a reality are two different things.
Anyway, I signed up for access to the University of Iowa Library
computers, so I'll try to get down here once in a while and stay in
touch. (The Public Library limits your time to 45 minutes a day, but
here I can use a computer for as long as I like.) But I won't make any
guarantees. My life is a living hell, and it constantly amazes me when
I make it through yet another year. From day to day, I just don't know
what is going to happen anymore.
I don't want this post to be *too* depressing. One good thing about
"hitting rock bottom" is that you finally start getting some real help
from people and/or organizations that otherwise ignore you. So, like I
said, I do feel some hope that things can get better. If I find the
time and energy, I will try to write some e-mails with a better
explanation to those who want one.
In the meantime, what's been happening around here? Any juicy threads I
should know about?
Ahmed
and somewhat kicking.
I know it's been *way* too long since I made contact (sorry, sorry,
sorry!), but believe me I wouldn't have stayed away so long if I'd had
any choice. I'm not going to go into many details (those who know me
already know some of the problems I have) because I'm pretty tired
about talking about/dealing with them in real life. Let's just say that
I've (hopefully) hit rock bottom, and in the last couple weeks things
have started to turn around. Finally.
There is one thing I will mention, for those interested, because it is
very serious. As some of you may recall, I have Marfan Syndrome. Some
of the major effects of the disease are on the heart. Well, just
recently, it has been confirmed that my aorta is enlarged and there is
a small leak in one of the valves. While I'm taking medication to keep
my blood pressure as low as possible, my heart is basically a "ticking
time-bomb." At some point the aorta will burst. Next week? Next year?
Ten years from now? Who knows. The only sure thing is that it will.
This isn't any big surprise for me, of course. I've known my whole life
that it was highly probable to happen. But knowing it could happen, and
finding out it's a reality are two different things.
Anyway, I signed up for access to the University of Iowa Library
computers, so I'll try to get down here once in a while and stay in
touch. (The Public Library limits your time to 45 minutes a day, but
here I can use a computer for as long as I like.) But I won't make any
guarantees. My life is a living hell, and it constantly amazes me when
I make it through yet another year. From day to day, I just don't know
what is going to happen anymore.
I don't want this post to be *too* depressing. One good thing about
"hitting rock bottom" is that you finally start getting some real help
from people and/or organizations that otherwise ignore you. So, like I
said, I do feel some hope that things can get better. If I find the
time and energy, I will try to write some e-mails with a better
explanation to those who want one.
In the meantime, what's been happening around here? Any juicy threads I
should know about?
Ahmed